Saturday, August 15, 2009

So, yeah, about that...

I guess I reached my 100 lb. mark? Wow, who knew. I'm still trying to get used to this new flesh suit, seeing bones and clavicles and veins and wrinkles I never saw before. A mixed bag of "aahs" and "ewws." Yet, I just never stopped to think how far I've come.

You know the old adage, never look back? I call bullshit on that. Looking back is the injection we sometimes need to keep moving forward. This past Monday, MizFit posted a neato article on the overlooked strengths of looking back and celebrating past accomplishments. And it got me to thinking the rest of the week about my fatso past. Don't get me wrong. I was happy even in my fat suit. Life doesn't stop simply because you're carrying around a little extra baggage. So, I didn't stop having fun, didn't stop lovin', didn't stop living.

But, all of this talk about looking backward came to a head tonight while I was coming up with ideas for a retro dress to wear at a cocktail party that Bobzilla and I are hosting in a couple weeks. While brainstorming tonight, I came up with the retard idea of wearing my old prom dress to the party. I fetched it from storage and tried it on. To my surprise, the cheap-ass hooker dress fit. Junior size 11 and it fit. Granted, the zipper was a little tricky in some parts, but it fit. I am slackjawed still. Not just at the fashion sensibility that was 1987 (junior prom), but that I fit my near-middle aged ass into it. Whoa.

In anticipation of this blog, I dug up our old prom picture. But then I found a pre-wedding picture that I remembered being especially embarrassed about because I looked so "fat." Here's that pre-wedding photo, circa 1994:

A couple years ago, I would have been grateful to be back to that weight, I had gotten so much bigger. Yet, even at the time that pic was taken, I was so ashamed, I wouldn't show it to anybody. I kept it on the fridge to remind me not to overeat. *snickers*

Yet, that picture apparently was not motivation enough, because I got much, much bigger. Here's Bobzilla and me from about 4 years ago:

My, aren't we the picture of health?

Here's a really flattering shot:

(and yes, my hair was really that long. It doesn't take a PhD to figure out what I was unconsciously trying to hide with all that hair...and cigarettes...and large clothing).

Oh, I have so many more very embarrassing pics, but let's not drag this out.

About those prom pics....Here's Bobzilla and me circa 1987:

And here I am tonight:

K. This should keep me motivated for a little while longer.


  1. I keep wanting to pull out old pictures. Maybe I'll take the time this weekend! I found an only formal dress in my closet this weekend. I almost put it in the Goodwill box, now I think you've inspired me to keep it!

  2. you fucking rock... so motivated...

  3. You and your near middle-aged ass are gettin' it done - fantastic! And not only does your body look teenager-ish, you look so much younger throughout your face too. Hmmm...that should be some great motivation for my middle-aged ass ...and face. Keep the pictures coming - hopefully it will inspire me to post some - but I think I'd need a massive loss just to even entertain that thought.

  4. Wow, you look amazing! Congrats on your progress! :)

  5. WTG on reaching the 100 pound mark! WHOO HOO! You look AMAZING- look at you rockin your prom dress! Go on with your bad self! lol :) HIGH 5!!!!!

  6. WOOHOO!!! Way to go! You look great!
    Congrats on hitting a big milestone.

  7. Wow, congratulations on reaching 100 pounds lost!!! What an accomplishment!!! I've been getting inspiration from you for so long now - thanks for another dose!

    Re your "fat" pictures - you look like a different person now. It is amazing what a difference extra pounds do to our overall appearance.

    The prom dress fitting is so fun! I didn't realize that you and Bobzilla went back that far - very cool in itself! 1987 I had my first baby...

    You need to update your sidebar pictures!

    Congratulations, again - I am so happy for you!!!

  8. 100 pounds, is AWESOME. You look incredible!

  9. You look better than ever! 100 pounds is a huge ass milestone and you deserve to celebrate the crap out of it. You're so cool :)

  10. Welcome to the 100 club!!! I'm so happy for you! (Really, I got tears in my eyes and everything!)

    No one ever mentions the wrinkles, do they? :)

    You look great in all the pictures (well, maybe that side shot wasn't the most flattering*G*), but you are rocking that prom dress!

  11. Congratulations! You are one of the few people I know that actually looks better now than you did in high school, and you looked great then. But now, You look more muscular and your face glows!

  12. you look more beautiful now! that dress involks images of cyndi lauper (just need to rip it up a bit, put on some fishnet tights and gloves!!!)
    rock on lady!

  13. Love it!! Congrats on the 100# milestone!! :)

  14. I'm really late to this celebration but ...
    WOW! Congratulations!
    100 lbs GONE!
    You look fantastic.

  15. OMG! When I scrolled down and saw you in your prom dress I for real got a tear in my eye and am so happy for you. You look absolutely BEAUTIFUL! And so healthy! And so young! Congratulations!!! As a reward I think a few of us ladies should take a trip somewhere soon.

  16. Stunning! You should also try to recreate the '87 hairdo. I really like it.

  17. Thanks, Lisa! You know, you're part of my motivation, you being a badass military chica and all. And you and Ben being so active and running. For fun.

    I want to recreate the hair, but for the full effect, Bob has to play, too. His hair was wicked cool.